023 - with you forever

My new song of the week: brought to you by Australias Nick Littmore. He also produced and is part of Empire of the Sun, as well as Teenagers! I'm in love with his distinctive voice.

022 - el pico

where oh where did the time go?

Here's a little blog update before work. Might i add that i look adorable today (i'm having a "pretty" day). I think any girl will understand what i mean by that. You have those very rare days when you think to yourself, "hmm... i look pretty good today!" Then you smile, and go about your day without worry. Lately, my days have consisted of waking up and feeling/looking like an ogre. But i guess we all go through little periods of low self esteem every so often. 

Anyways, i'm wearing a shirt beaded flapper style dress, with black tights and ankle high black cowboy boots and a long sweater. 

Whats gone on it the past month you may ask?

Well here's some interesting news: my moms pregnant. That is all i'm going to say, because i prefer to not discuss the situation. Maybe when i'm a bit more comfortable i will talk about it in later entries. The past few weeks have contained creativity, a lot of sitting in my room by myself mixing music for hours. Many drinking binges in which i got much to drunk. Adda says jager is not for me. (I turn into an evil bitch). I met some gorgeous internet friends from Calgary. Work Work Work Work Work....

What am i looking forward to?

Carson has announced that he will quit smoking by the end of May. (It's getting pretty close hunny). I'm also looking forward to.... more work.. (sarcasm). In July Carson and I are going to Punta Cana, the trip isn't booked yet for one reason: I have money and he doesn't. So when he gets out of school in a month, that nig nogs getting a job. If Carson can't come up with the money... I have another person in mind who would be willing to go with me. hehe.

020 - fake blood fake blood!

it's kind of embarrassing that ive been driving around all week with my windows down punching the air and listening to AFI and Billy Talent. 

Brings back memories from grade 8. 

019 -

You will soon realize that the people you call your friends, won't really stick around for as long as you planned. I learn that more and more everyday.

Perhaps it's the fact that i barricade myself from the social entrapment that surrounds. My type of person pertains to very particular people. Casual acquaintances... i have many. Real friends: i have 3. (Including my mom...) My best friend lives in Calgary. Our relationship is strictly web based. My other best friend has the almost complete opposite schedule of mine. We see each other when it works. I want to count Carson as a best friend, but i can't. Most of the time when you are dating someone it seems like the best friendship at the time. You know everything about each other, you imagine that person always being there. In reality, they will abandon you at one point or another. 

Lives change, people move, people stay. 

Unspoken bonds are broken in the dirtiest ways. 

018 - you look like an idiot..

017 - all caught up

Carson and I spent the day at the beach yesterday out for lunch and having a photoshoot with my favorite photographer, Michelle Moore. She is absolutely amazing! I will post the pictures soon. 

Here is her website  What I see. 

Lucky me for having such a willing boyfriend. (After quite a few shots of whiskey...!) 

This week should be a little more laid back than last. 

Midterms over, and i'm not bombarded with work!

016 - song of the day

I'm off to do important things... work, go to the mechanics, and get my taxes done.
for everyone else, you can enjoy this song. (And the rain).

015 - mental housekeeping

mental housekeeping needs to be done often.

I learnt that this week. Now i feel a lot better about myself.

Wow, these antibiotics take absolutely everything out of me.

I dont even want to move. 

014 - jason statham is a dreamboat.

But really, isn't he just the man of all men. Carson and i vote yes.

Well i'm home for an hour and a half, then im out again. I'm not too sure where i live sometimes. I have three homes currently. 

To disco or not to disco? Calvin Harris is on Friday (tomorrow) might go see him.

ORRRRRR i could be a boring housewife and get the car fixed, taxes done, feed the children....

011 - happy st patricks day in one hour

Most of you youngins are out partying.  (Spring Break?)

Me, well, im sitting at home moping around as usual. Im also wondering why banging noises are coming from my dads bedroom. That question should most definitely go unanswered. Today started out with a shitty day at work, then i trip to the tanning salon. The only purpose of tanning is for me to regain the freckles i once had (it seems to be working). Carson considers freckles very boner-worthy, which is A-ok in my books. Then i came home and forced myself to study... which ended up as is usually does... finding other things to occupy my time. i wasted an hour playing with my dinosaurs and dancing to Jaguar Love. Then, as if things couldn't already get less motivated, i developed a pounding headache and convinced myself it wouldn't go away without a nap. I had dreams of black people, car crashes, and cheese. Then i awoke and forced myself to start making cue cards. They were marbled cue cards, in blue pink and green. How artistic. 

After that i made my first legal trip to the liquor store and purchased the cheapest 2'6 of vodka for my brother which he is going to be splitting with 6 of his friends. (good luck guys).  That brings me to the current time and date... i think i will now switch to real paper.

goodnight and sweet dreams. 

010 - a day of rest, a molten sky

So, as the celebration comes to an end... I learned a few things.

1. Never have a drunken bath in a hotel bathtub without soap. (I seemed to have contracted a hellish bladder infection). 

2. Dj's are usually nerdy, sweaty dudes who work in pairs and are good with computers. 

3. Fast food workers can afford their own hookers.

( Lies ! Lies ! )

4. If you see a tranny, don't stare. It will anger the beast. 

5. Carson shoves his toothbrush way to far down his throat to be normal...

And with that said, i had a nothing but delicious birthday!

Thanks to all who took their time to wish me a good one.

011 - im 19

woop sha doop.

woop woop sha doop.

010 - salt frequencies

Carson showed me this last night, it's really creepy. WATCH IT. 

salt can rearrange itself as different frequencies. 

It makes me think there is a lot to science we don't know. 

009 - evenin'

Random fact of the day: Porcupines float in water.

!!!!!!! Ladies and gentlemen, remember to turn your clocks forward tonight! Otherwise you might be late for important events such as a bootie call, or work...

 

008 - it's almost that time again...

Good afternoon friends and foes. 

Last night i saw the highly anticipated "Watchmen".

Don't hate me when i tell you i fell asleep for the last half an hour. Quite frankly the film was just to long and dragged on. Carson had his panties in a knot because apparently the ending wasn't anything like the ending is in the real comic. (In reality his panties were probably in a knot because he cut off all his hair and currently looks like a cancer patient). 

(no offense to cancer patients)

006 - McGinty

"I stare at ugly people.

it's a bad habit,

But it's hard to turn away from a wreck". 

005 - a quick little update

As i sit and eat roast beef and fruit loops, i thought i'd share a few necessary tidbits of information with you all. 

First and foremost: you may have noticed a lack of entries.

YES! i DID delete everything. All the boring complaints and music recommendations and dumb comics that make no sense except to a small handful of people. So i've decided to start fresh. 

Secondly: you will notice an ad in the top right corner. If you love me enough (or find me somewhat a good person) you should click it. I promise you it will create good karma. 

And last but not least, i thought i'd brag and say that my birthday is almost a week away. The plans are to go see Simian Mobile Disco at the Commodore, and then my mom has booked a room at the Fairmount for Carson and I to enjoy. Or perhaps, enjoy the toilets after a long night of binge drinking.

004 - lots and lots and lots of smoke

It is hard to bargain with society, even in the most simplest of ways.

Exhibit one:

Should crematoriums give discounts for those who've died in fires?

Oh, the day and age. 

003 - a sentimental thought for the day

"Belief is a beautiful armor,

that makes for the heaviest sword."

002 - giant grey tshirts

I am the happiest i have ever been in 19 years.

I know, i know

I am still a baby.

But if i died today in some freak accident,

i'd be very bloody

But at least i'd have a smile on my face.

001 - early hours

"With her ankles being carefully caressed by the sand, she looked to the sky. 

A scream in the coldest of air, and a thunk of something being recycled behind her, she couldn't help but wallow away in her own thoughts.

If the words crisis and opportunity meant the same in Chinese, then what hope was there for the rest of the world? 

Soon enough the muddy cavern had engulfed her up to the knees. The sky had begun to turn a lethal red; But if lethal injections were given with sterile needles, what was the use in sterilizing them in the first place? There is no cheating death.